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Billy Budd Essay Tara Lane
Per. 6
In Herman Melville’s classic novella Billy Budd, Captain Vere is quoted saying, “How can we adjudge to summary and shameful death a fellow creature innocent before God, and whom we feel to be so?” Melville’s thoughts about Billy’s sentence to die are strongly seen in this quote. While Melville did not wish for Billy to die, the author knew the character had to fulfill this act in order for him to carry on the comparison of Billy Budd to Jesus Christ.
Melville suggests there is an eternal conflict in the world between evil and good. Evil is represented by the master-at-arms, Claggart, and good is embodied in Billy Budd. Billy is described to be like Adam, the innocent first man, and is also presented as a Christ-figure repeatedly throughout the book. The moment that Billy stepped off the Rights of Man can be seen as the moment Christ was born and left heaven for earth, symbolized by the Bellipotent. He came to earth to die to save others that would live after him. The Biblical scripture Isaiah 53:5 says,
“But he was wounded for our transgressions, he was bruised for our iniquities: the chastisement of our peace was upon him; and with his stripes we are healed.”
While this verse describes Jesus Christ, it also describes Billy Budd. Billy was killed because the blame was placed on him for planning a mutiny; he was killed for the wrongdoing of others. Billy’s death also mirrors the death of Christ through the description of his ascension into heaven when he was hung, “…watched by the wedged mass of upturned faces, Billy ascended; and, ascending, took the full rose of the dawn” , as the gospels of Matthew, Mark, Luke, and John describe Christ’s ascension.
The cross on which Christ was killed can be compared to the Bellipotent, where Billy was killed. Both men “hung”, Christ by nails and Billy by a rope.
“The Book of the Prophet Isaiah”, The Bible. http://scriptures.lds.org/isa/53. 15 April 2004
Melville, Herman. Billy Budd. Pocket Books: New York, 1999. 80.
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[15 Apr 2004|06:05pm] |
T - You have an attitude, a big one.
A - You can be very quiet when you have something on your mind.
R - You are a social butterfly.
A - You can be very quiet when you have something on your mind.
L - Love is something you deeply believe in.
A - You can be very quiet when you have something on your mind.
N - You like to work, but you always want a break.
E - You are a very exciting person.
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[29 Jan 2004|01:36pm] |
EXOTIC FOREIGNER ALIAS = Favorite Spice + Last (Foreign) Vacation Spot : Cinnimon Montreal
SOCIALITE ALIAS = Silliest Childhood Nickname + Town Where You First Partied : Tara-Lou Saratoga
"FLY GIRL" ALIAS (à la J. Lo) = First Initial + First Two or Three Letters of Your Last Name : T. Lane all the way!
ROCK STAR ALIAS = Any Liquid on the Bar + Last Name of Bad-Ass Celeb : Cosmo Downey, Jr. ha.
DIVA ALIAS = Something Sweet Within Sight + Any Liquid in Kitchen : Gummi Juice
GIRL DETECTIVE ALIAS = Favorite Baby Animal + Where You Last Went To School : Panda Fairport
SOAP OPERA ALIAS = Middle Name + Street Where You First Lived : Michelle South
DRAG QUEEN ALIAS = First Pet's Name + Street Where You First Lived : Pebbles South
that last one's kinda gross.
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1. What did you do in 2003 that you'd never done before?
got asked out by the best person ever, and went to the senior ball
2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
i think resolutions are crap, and if i made any i wouldn't keep them anyway
3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
no...i don't think so
4. Did anyone close to you die?
Scott Sherwood....best guy ever RIP 6-9-84 to 7-26-03
5. What countries did you visit?
none...utah might count as another country tho to some.
6. What would you like to have in 2004 that you lacked in 2003?
energy to actually do something.
7. What date from 2003 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
January 4th---day Scott asked me out and my 14-hour date w/ Daniel <3333
July 26th---day Scott died, and the day my life changed
8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
getting my license and my personal progress award (church thing....)
9. What was your biggest failure?
School.....AP american to be exact
10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
I got the flu twice. It sucked.
11. What was the best thing you bought?
ummm...Love Spell body spray and my cute black shoes
12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
Nate Morley...he went on a mission way sooner than expected....yay!!!! i miss him :-(
13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
MATT STEFFEN
14. Where did most of your money go?
Wegmans and to the mall...Charlotte Russe probably
15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
The Senior Ball....my Utah trip...my new computer
16. What song(s) will always remind you of 2003?
50 Cent-In Da Club.....they played it over...and over...and over....
17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
i. happier or sadder? way sadder. today is one year since the day scott and i started dating.
ii. thinner or fatter? Thinner i think. maybe the same. its different everyday
iii. richer or poorer? Richer : )
18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
Bailey
19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
Shopping and spending all my money
20. How will you be spending Christmas?
Christmas is already gone and done with...i went to Maren's and mine and her families went to the movies
21. Compared to this time last year, has your biggest crush receded or gotten stronger?
Hmmm...
22. Did you fall in love in 2003?
definitely
23. Any one-night stands?
ew gross no.
24. What was your favorite TV program?
Friends and ER...i'm an addict
25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
i don't HATE anyone. just dislike. but i can't say who they are cuz i'll get kicked out of the musical....haha. lets just their name begins with A and ends with lessa.
26. What was the best book you read?
Harry Potter 5
27. What was your greatest musical discoveries?
3 Doors Down, Evanescense, Vertical Horizon
28. What did you want and get?
Scott....A Job.....my license
#29 anyone????
30. What was your favorite film of this year?
Pirates of the Caribbean
31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
School, downstage, then applebees....i turned 17
32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
Having another boyfriend *sigh*
33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2003?
Maren-esque
34. What kept you sane?
Friends...church
35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
Colin Farell and Matt Damon
36. What political issue stirred you the most?
dunno...too many
37. Who did you miss?
Scott, Dan, Nate, Matt....my boys *cries*
38. Who was the best new person you met?
Daniel <3333
39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2003:
Your true friends are the ones that are there for you through everything
40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
I’m here without you baby but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
I’m here without you baby but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight it’s only you and me
The miles just keep rolling as the people either way to say hello
I hear this life is overrated but I hope it gets better as we go
----3 Doors Down, Here Without you
Don't forget! my new LJ name is pink_dork
comment to be added!!!
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| lookie danielle! it's in here! |
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wow.........this weekend was......crazy.
friday---opening night of Taming of the Shrew, cuz it got cancelled on Thursday night. I got to the school at 4:30ish for makeup call, and brought mallory cuz she had just gotten here. i did about 3 ppl's makeup, then we waited for a bit and the watched the show, which was really good. then i went home a slept. finally.
saturday---worked for 5 1/2 hours straight....yuck. never again. didn't go to the show cuz i was too pooped and didn't feel like doing makeup. so me and mal made christmas presents! after that we got ready for the gold and green ball....and wow, that dance SUCKED. they hyped it so much at church, there was supposed to be this big band....the band sucked, the music sucked, the people sucked (not everyone, just the fact that the parents were there for this one.) so a bunch of us (me, mallory, felicia, danielle, jonathan nickell, kyle mang, spencer salimbene, ryan lockwood, dallas shanks) all went back to my house to watch a movie. we left an hour and a half early. thats when the craziness began.
first of all, the guys left me, mal, and danielle alone in the parkinglot with RICHARD of all people for 15 minutes while they went who knows where. adam hill (pothead extremest) was out there too along with some drunk(?) friends of his. yeah. so then when they finally came back to get us, we had to go get gas for spencer's truck. well, there was 2 cop cars across from the gas station...and they heard kyle's car. its realllly loud. his exhaust thing is fixed to be that way. so the cops started circling the station, and kyle was flipping out cuz he knew they were gonna pull us over. but he thought it would be because we had 4 people in a 2 seater car. so as soon as we pulled out, the cop was on us and pulled us over. the best part? the cop had pulled kyle over before. 4 times. yup. thats right. he walks up to the car and goes "i recognize you from somewhere. how do i know you?" hahahha. oh, and we didn't get a ticket (cuz i flirted with the cop, right danielle? hahaha) so it was allll good. so when we finally got back to my house, we watched Eight Crazy Nights and chilled. it was a lot more fun than the dance!!!
sunday---went to church, then right to the school to do makeup again, where i was the only person there for about an hour. yeah. i did 8 boys' eyeliner. keep in mind, boys squirm and cry when you put anything near their eyes. now i'm home, and about to go to collapse from the lack of sleep this weekend.
goodnite!
heart, Tara
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yeah........life is boring. i'm a slacker as usual, i never take notes from Bailey (but i do read it!) and i get my notes online...and i have a cheaters book for Macbeth. yup. i'm a good AP student...
funny thing happened today...i was standing at my locker b4 5th, right before american, which is usually when i see Nate Kelsey, the sophomre i'm obsessed with, and i turn to kelsey and say "i haven't seen nathanial today!"...and she just looks at me with this funny look...because he was standing right behind me (back turned, phew)...and i just booked it into class (about 2 feet away, lol). that was probably the highlight of my day, haha.
ummm...so this weekend i went to the movies friday night with MATT STEFEN!!! omg i hadn't seen him since Maren's party in august...i asked him to come with us cuz it was Nate's last weekend home (he left today for Utah, where he'll be for 8 weeks before leaving for Tokyo Japan for 2 years)...o yeah nate, shannon, richard, felicia, and sarah were there too. we saw "Radio" which was really good...just a little to long. i couldn't feel my butt. yeah. and it was reeeeaaaalllllyyyyy cold and i have ZERO tolerance for cold.
saturday i went to the mall with kels, and we saw the oh-so-special "NEW WING OOOOOMMMMGGGGG". yeah. its not that great. we have VALET parking? wtf? who pays to park at the MALL???? i think its stupid, and all the new stores are stupid. but hey, thats just me.
yeah....so nothing too exciting...I MISS DAN. thats all. 21 months, thats what i keep telling myself...
leave comments!
<3 Tara
***a hundred days had made me older since the last time
that I saw your pretty face
A thousand lights had made me colder and
I don’t think I can look at this the same
But all the miles had separate
They disappeared now when I’m dreaming of your face
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| fill this out, damnit! |
[30 Oct 2003|01:46pm] |
props to danielle for this.
01: what is your first memory of me:
02: how long have we been friends:
03: tell about one memory we share together:
04: describe me in four adjectives:
05: if we could spend a day together what would we do:
06: name one thing you really don't like about me:
07: name one thing you really do like about me:
08: if you could give me a gift what would it be:
09: have we ever gotten in a fight & about what:
10: have we ever hugged:
11: have we ever danced with each other:
12: have you ever seen me cry:
13: have i ever offended you:
14: what is something embarrassing that i've done:
15: what do i usually look like when you see me:
16: what do i say all the time\whats my catch phrase:
17: do you think we will be friends in 5 years:
18: do you think i am bitchy:
19: has there been anything you wanted to tell me, but didn't:
20: what advice would you give me, in general:
21: wanna make out:
22: suggest a band / cd for me to listen to:
23: is there a song that reminds you of me:
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[30 Oct 2003|01:30pm] |
I found it, Kels!
Around here ("here" being home to splendid graduate and undergraduate programs in drama), some students and faculty steadfastly avoid pronouncing the dread title of Shakespeare's 29th play. The level of irony in this aversion can be difficult to gauge; many say "The Scottish Play" with a smile and a wink yet never refer to the play by any other title. According to two faculty members I queried [1], the prohibition, which forbids the name *Macbeth* or recitation of lines from the play, is location-specific; a person may not speak the forbidden words in a theater but may freely utter them, say, in a literature class (or on a newsgroup). Still, some actors substitute "The Scottish Play" for *Macbeth* wherever they are, and the euphemism has, in some circles, become a way of distinguishing theater people from civilians.
The superstition seems to have arisen, in part, from the play's depiction of witchcraft, still a vital (though contested) belief in 1606, when the play was first performed. Like Marlowe's *Doctor Faustus* (1592?), in which staged incantations were occasionally reported to have raised real devils, *Macbeth* was believed to flirt dangerously with the Powers of Evil, bringing catastrophe down upon productions over the succeeding centuries. In fact, a staggering number of actors *has* suffered disaster during--or just after--productions of the play, including Stanislavski, Orson Welles, and Charlton Heston. Audiences and readers have also been afflicted; an 1849 performance was disrupted by a riot that killed more than 30 people, and Lincoln supposedly re-read it the night before his assassination. [2]
Those seeking rational reasons for the Scottish Curse have pointed to several features of the play as conducive to accidents: dim lighting and stage combat chief among them. Authentic productions often use broadswords, which are heavy and difficult to wield deftly, capable of inflicting considerable blunt trauma. Moreover, as Shakespeare's shortest play, *Macbeth* makes a logical last-minute addition to a company's repertoire and so can be dangerously under-rehearsed.
Many actors are not interested in rationalizing the superstition, however, as the theater is, quite predictably, the site of many rituals of aversion and induction. Acting itself seems like a form of witchcraft, in which characters are summoned and brought to life through a process that nobody fully understands, with the result that the craft is rather more hospitable to magical thinking than most other professions.
Laura "eating (voraciously) on the insane root" King
[1] Joseph Roach, Professor of Theater Studies, and Marc Robinson, Assistant Professor of Drama and Director of Theater Studies. Prof. Roach is the source of the information about broadsword combat, under-rehearsed productions, and theatrical ritual as well.
[2] See Richard Huggett, *Supernatural On Stage* for many more examples.
also see http://www.gabrielegan.com/publications/Egan2002k.htm
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| and now we interrupt you for this special announcement |
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this weekend was....exhausting. my aunt and cousins (minus danny) came over from VT to visit for the weekend. i worked friday night, while everyone went out to Dinosaur BBQ, which i've still never been to. Saturday we went to palmyra, and i got a new CTR ring and a star necklace, woo-hoo. i love the ring, but i feel reallllly guilty cuz i spent 20 bucks on it...eeek. its sterling silver, and its a shooting star thingy, its really nice. i just dunno if its really worth that much. i got it cuz i knew my parents wouldn't buy it, since i'm already asking for a lot for christmas/birthday.
OHHHHHH!!!! found out friday that kels' dad got tix for HAIRSPRAY!!!!!!! and they were FREEEEEEEEEE!!!!!! which makes it 10 times better. we just dunno what night it is yet. i'm worried cuz if its friday or saturday night i can't go. well, friday i might be able to, but i'll have to leave at like 5 in the morning on saturday to get to em's in scranton, then to the Philly airport to get the plane to UTAH oh yes. can't wait. BYU. Dorms. College boys. no parents. I CAN'T WAIT!!!!!! ahhhhh. i've got to remember, its a "college visit".
so yeah, then i worked on saturday afternoon, cardboard/reshops. not fun. i always get a headache when i do that. it sucks.
sunday morning we watched Saturday's Warrior (mormon movie) which was awesome, i haven't seen it since i was like 5....its so incredibly cheesy, but i love it and i love the music! then i did my entire american author essay, completley off sparknotes, cuz i only read 70 of the 450 pages. yup. but my essay rocks. :-)
this week is kinda nuts. 4 days of work+ the halloween party+ big tests and essays= an unhappy and grumpy Tara. plus drivers ed sign-ups, so i lose all my money. not cool.
kk g2g now and read more bailey and rewrite the DBQ stuff....maybe. if i don't fall asleep first.
<3 Tara
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[23 Oct 2003|01:39pm] |
i wrote this the other night. i need to stop being depressed about this, but i just can't help it. :-(
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I miss you so much
Why’d you have to go?
You left in such a horrible way
The crash, the sound, the blow
Everyone’s still crying
They’re hoping it’s not true
Looking at old photos
Remembering everything of you
They play our song out loud
Tears start flowing from my eyes
As I walk up to your casket
And I start to say goodbye
My sweaty palms hold the key
You said it was to your heart
You promised that we’d be together
You said we’d never part
People say that I’ll find another
But I know that it’s not true
You were my first, and will be my only love
I’ll remember you in everything I do
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catch me as i fall
say you're here and it's all over now
speaking to the atmosphere
no one's here and i fall into myself
this truth drives me
into madness
i know i can stop the pain
if i will it all away
don't turn away
don't give in to the pain
don't try to hide
though they're screaming your name
don't close your eyes
god knows what lies behind them
don't turn out the light
never sleep never die
i'm frightened by what i see
but somehow i know
that there's much more to come
immobilized by my fear
and soon to be
blinded by tears
i can stop the pain
if i will it all away
fallen angels at my feet
whispered voices at my ear
death before my eyes
lying next to me i fear
she beckons me
shall i give in
upon my end shall i begin
forsaking all i've fallen for
i rise to meet my end
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[20 Oct 2003|01:59pm] |
how i feel about the scott situation:
Kelly Clarkson-"Low"
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Everybody’s talking
But they don’t say a thing
They look at me with sad eyes
But I don’t want their sympathy
Its cool you didn’t want me
Sometimes you can’t go back
But why’d you have to go and make a mess like that
Well I just have to say
Before I let go
Have you ever been low?
Have you ever had a friend that let you down so?
When the truth came out
Were you the last to know?
Were you left out in the cold?
What you did was low
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how i feel about the dan situation
Incubus- "I Miss You"
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To see you when I wake up, is a gift I didn't think could be real
To know that you feel the same, as I do, is a Three-fold utopian dream
You do something to me
That I can't explain
So would I be out of line, If I said
I miss you.
I see your picture, I smell your skin on, the empty pillow next to mine
You have only been gone ten days, but already I am wasting away
I know I'll see you again
Whether far or soon
But I need you to know, that I care
And I miss you
nate kelsey's hot!
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10 bands/artists you couldn't live without:
[1] Rent Soundtrack
[2] Michelle Branch
[3] Vertical Horizon
[4] Staind
[5] Evansecense
[6] JoDee Messina
[7] Mark Wills
[8] Christina Aguilera (the LYRICS, not the person, people)
[9] Tim McGraw
[10] Faith Hill
9 albums that are important to you:
[1] Michelle Branch-The Spirit Room
[2] TBS-Tell All Your Friends
[3] Hairspray Soundtrack
[4] what i have so far of the Rent sndtrk
[5] Christina Aguilera
[6] My "Venting" mix
[7] Faith Hill-Cry
[8] Hyannis Sound-Cape Standart Time
[9] The Innovators-?
[10] the Something Corporate mix i made
8 movies you'd watch over and over:
[1] A Walk To Remember
[2] Clueless
[3] Sleepless In Seattle
[4] The Breakfast Club
[5] American Outlaws
[6] Ocean's 11
[7] Daredevil
[8] How To Lose A Guy In 10 Days
7 things that annoy you:
[1] people who walk slow cuz they think they're cool
[2] most sophomores at FHS
[3] people who always have to 1-Up you
[4] posers
[5] people who smell bad
[6] the people in the library in the morning
[7] being tired and not being able to fall asleep
6 of your favorite songs:
[1] Give You Back
[2] My Immortal
[3] Gray Sky Morning
[4] Seasons of Love
[5] Over The Moon
[6] Why Don't You And I
5 TV shows you watch regularly:
[1] Friends
[2] ER
[3] Threat Matrix
[4] Newlyweds
[5] Jeopardy
3 albums you've bought recently:
[1] Michelle Branch-Hotel Paper
[2] J.Lo-This is me...Then
[3] uhh...i don't really buy albums...lol
2 Artists you would like to do the NASTY with:
[1] Justin Timberlake
[2] Alex Band
1 Band whos music has would be described as writing the soundtrack of your life:
[1] Evanescense
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wow...haven't done a real update in a while! not a ton has happened, but the main highlight of the entire month was seeing RENT at the auditorium center...omg it was so amazingly incredible...the music...the characters...wow i wish i could just watch it over and over again. the music will have to do it for now, i've got about 10 of the, like, 30 songs. i'm asking for the CD set for christmas. next month is Hairspray, which is like 50+ bucks, then i fly to utah for thanksgiving with ems to see grace, then its mine and felicia's birthday's, then christmas!!!! yay!!!!
hmmm...wow i had a lot to say b4. now i can't think of anything. o yeah, alaina showed me how to change the comment links, so now they're not boring. the parts are from the best monolouge ever, done by Maureen in RENT, and its called Over The Moon. Download it if you get a chance. It won't make much sense if you haven't seen it, but its tons of fun to listen to and i garuntee you'll laugh. suicidal mickey mouse, untensils, cows, diet coke....yeah, its all in there!!!
ok g2g the kitten's attacking my legs...
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<3 Tara
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[10 Oct 2003|01:59pm] |
Jo Dee Messina - "I Wish"
It's not easy saying this to you
It's the hardest thing I've ever had to do
But boy before you go
I want you to know
I wish you strength
When times are hard
Oh, I wish with all my heart you find
just what you're looking for
I wish you joy
I wish you peace
And that every star you see is within your reach
And I wish you still loved me
I wish that things were different you know that
But I'm still happy for the times we had
You mean the world to me
Oh baby please believe
Oh, losing you is tearing me apart
But a part of me will be with you no matter where you are
Oh, I wish you still loved me
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#17. John Adams and Thomas Jefferson both died on July 4th, 1826
#18. France complied with Macon's Bill No.2, causing Madison to gravitate towards them politically, which brought the U.S. closer to war because they were now enemies with Britian.
#19. The War Hawks were the newly elected congressmen, and they were chiefly from the South and the West; They were much younger than their predecessors. They wanted "Free Trade and Sailors' Rights", as well as free land.
#20. The brothers succeeded in the way that they united their people and encouraged them to fight, but they failed because their people weren't strong enough to defend themselves against the whites, and the two leaders' dreams perised along with them in the early 1800's, shortly after they started their movement.
#21. The War Hawks wanted to fight Britian for many reasons; first, beacuse the British were arming the Indians, enabling them to attack pioneer cabins on the frontier. They also believed that if the U.S. won Canada from Britian, they would have a "haven" for frontiersmen. The British impressments on sailors was also causing much upset among Americans. Also, the Republicans in the senate had connections with France, causing some partisanship.
see y'all tomorrow!
~Tara
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This is what I read when i get so freakin stressed i don't think i can handle it anymore...which seems to be everyday...i cried this morning reading it in seminary...:-( i'm really trying to be a good person, i really am! ever since EFY i've felt so good about everything...church, friends, family...but ever since school started i've been getting so stressed and out-of-focus with everything...i feel like there's no one left i can talk to when i need to, like scott esepcially...i don't think many people realize how important it is to just keep his memory alive...it makes me sad that hardly anyone seems to care anymore, and i know life goes on, and i'm trying to do that...but...yeah. read on...i wonder if this scripture passage will affect anyone as it does me, especially people who don't go to my church...comment please and let me know what you think...
16 Behold, my soul delighteth in the things of the Lord; and my heart pondereth continually upon the things which I have seen and heard.
17 Nevertheless, notwithstanding the great goodness of the Lord, in showing me his great and marvelous works, my heart exclaimeth: O wretched man that I am! Yea, my heart sorroweth because of my flesh; my soul grieveth because of mine iniquities.
18 I am encompassed about, because of the temptations and the sins which do so easily beset me.
19 And when I desire to rejoice, my heart groaneth because of my sins; nevertheless, I know in whom I have trusted.
20 My God hath been my support; he hath led me through mine afflictions in the wilderness; and he hath preserved me upon the waters of the great deep.
21 He hath filled me with his alove, even unto the consuming of my flesh.
22 He hath confounded mine enemies, unto the causing of them to quake before me.
23 Behold, he hath heard my cry by day, and he hath given me knowledge by visions in the night-time.
24 And by day have I waxed bold in mighty prayer before him; yea, my voice have I sent up on high; and angels came down and ministered unto me.
25 And upon the wings of his Spirit hath my body been carried away upon exceedingly high mountains. And mine eyes have beheld great things, yea, even too great for man; therefore I was bidden that I should not write them.
26 O then, if I have seen so great things, if the Lord in his condescension unto the children of men hath visited men in so much mercy, why should my heart weep and my soul linger in the valley of sorrow, and my flesh waste away, and my strength slacken, because of mine afflictions?
27 And why should I yield to sin, because of my flesh? Yea, why should I give way to temptations, that the evil one have place in my heart to destroy my peace and afflict my soul? Why am I angry because of mine enemy?
28 Awake, my soul! No longer droop in sin. Rejoice, O my heart, and give place no more for the enemy of my soul.
29 Do not anger again because of mine enemies. Do not slacken my strength because of mine afflictions.
30 Rejoice, O my heart, and cry unto the Lord, and say: O Lord, I will praise thee forever; yea, my soul will rejoice in thee, my God, and the rock of my salvation.
31 O Lord, wilt thou redeem my soul? Wilt thou deliver me out of the hands of mine enemies? Wilt thou make me that I may shake at the appearance of sin?
32 May the gates of hell be shut continually before me, because that my heart is broken and my spirit is contrite! O Lord, wilt thou not shut the gates of thy righteousness before me, that I may walk in the path of the low valley, that I may be strict in the plain road!
33 O Lord, wilt thou encircle me around in the robe of thy righteousness! O Lord, wilt thou make a way for mine escape before mine enemies! Wilt thou make my path straight before me! Wilt thou not place a stumbling block in my way—but that thou wouldst clear my way before me, and hedge not up my way, but the ways of mine enemy.
34 O Lord, I have atrusted in thee, and I will btrust in thee forever. I will not put my trust in the arm of flesh; for I know that cursed is he that putteth his trust in the arm of flesh. Yea, cursed is he that putteth his trust in man or maketh flesh his arm.
35 Yea, I know that God will give liberally to him that asketh. Yea, my God will give me, if I ask not amiss; therefore I will lift up my voice unto thee; yea, I will cry unto thee, my God, the rock of my righteousness. Behold, my voice shall forever ascend up unto thee, my rock and mine everlasting God. Amen.
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[02 Oct 2003|01:47pm] |
woo-hoo, its almost been a week. sorry everyone for leaving you out of the loop. School + work = BAD. i hardly have anytime for myself anymore. Plus with the new kitten, its like taking care of a baby...she's insane. But oh-so cute! Humanities is nuts...way too much homework. And last night was an easy night. I am not looking forward to the rest of this year. All i want to do is get through alive. In Kelsey's words, "Humanities sucks and wants to take me down with it!" so true.
I've been feeling really weird lately. The whole not-eating-wanting-tp-throw-up-when-i-see-food thing is coming back again, probably cuz i'm so freakin depressed and stressed out. My hair is falling out in huge amounts (i'm not bald or anything, tho, lol) and i get absolutley no sleep. Plus, i've been writing tons of poetry latley. It's not your typical stuff tho, its all depressing, mostly inspired by scott. When i get home maybe i'll post one i wrote last night. I took up 6 pages in my journal with just poetry. I'm thinking of submitting some to the library contest, just cuz i need the money! I spent half of study-hall writing stuff, too. :-)
g2g hogan's coming...i'll add more later.
byes
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so yeah, today was actually pretty okay. i was tired, as usual, due to the fact that i stayed up way late last night to watch ER...which was AMAZING...kovach died, so sad, not. i didn't like him anyway.
so i checked my schedule this morning online...and got a pleasant surprise! first of all, i'm only working 9.5 hours, and 3 of those are doing cardboard/reshops!!! reshops are fun! cuz you don't have to be on register!!! yay!!! plus, my IPM's (items per minute) are up to 15.7, which means i can legally be on express!!! woo-hoo. school was okay, just a shitload of hw to do this weekend. grrr...
after school i went to richards to pick up my glasses, then i went to scott's grave because i haven't gone since he died, and today is the 2 month anniversary of his death. it was very, very, very humbling. i've never gone to the grave of someone i actually knew that well...i just sat there for a while...then i just started talking like he was there. yes, thats right, i'm officially insane. it was nice tho, i'm glad i went. i picked some clovers from around his site, too, which i'll add to the scott box.
after that i went to JC Penny cuz my mom said there were some purses there really cheap...i got 3!!! they were 4 (2) and 6 (1) bucks. And then i found these really cute skirts for 3 bucks, but i couldn't figure out which one to get, so i got both. and a shirt to match one of them. yay for sales!!!
work was okay, i was on express the last hour, which was nice. then i saw marzee and told her about shopping (lol) and then i got PAID!!! 73 buckaroos!!!
now i'm watching miss match, its really good so far, alicia silverstone is cool. leave comments if you wish!
<3 Tara
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